every time, everybody going out...

only me alone at home but when i going out alone...something like i do wrong thing in the world...T.T..

they always don't count me when they want to o any place at any time..

me always be alone....

always alone...alone..alone....

what the thing i can do is stay at home.....

watching drama..sleep....haiz..............

yesterday 2pm concert is really awesome...

and i feel very lucky because i got saw my idol on my life...i feel so happy....

wooyoung..i will always support you...

and the other member of 2pm,nickhun,taecyeon,chansung,junsu and junho....

you all are awesome and handsome...you all inspired me a lot at that night....

if you really so dislike to me...you ca told me no need always give me a type of face ......i don't like it..if u really think that i am not a good roommate u can told to me....i will move.....me feel tired already and yesterday you already hurt my heart so much already......

so sad...i want to cry.....

today,i was so excited when went to monash university and asked about the course information about the bachelor of pharmacy...but the result we got was a terrible answer which is we need to wait one more year for the bachelor because our foundation finish in march.....

after that, i thought that i already asked my friend went to eat sushi at sunway pyramid but he put aeroplane to me which causes i waited from 1pm to 7pm and when i called him he just told me that he want to visited the house.....

i want to cry at that time because when i message him at noon,he told me he will call me later but waiting and waiting he still didn't call me yet...luckily when 7pm i call to him he just told me that he got another place need to go.....what can i do?i don't know....i just know that our plan of eating sushi force to be cancelled......

i don't know.............

pharmacy.....

since i will finishing my foundation in mahsa university colleges another half year......

after i will persuade my degree course bachelor of pharmacy....i don't know which one university colleges i want to choose...mahsa or monash....

i afraid that monash university didn't accept mahsa foundation because compared to other colleges the standard is different....

i don't know isn't that necessary changed to monash university colleges....

i don't know whether for me that is good or not because i will left my mahsa good budies and transfer to a school which are not familiar as before.....i need to start a new life at there....the living expenses at there is high enough compared to here...

i also didn't want to left my friend which are already very good with them...a there i can feel that i will become lonely because i can't enter to their environment which are very high..

mahsa or monash....i need to think clearly and i need to consider many thing...

eventhough i know that monash got a good environment for us to continue study...

2 October 2011

today i just came back from my good friend hostel at sunway university residence...

there is a good place compared to mahsa...haiz.....totally difference....

and i feel thank you to steven kua who help me get into his hostel yesterday night....

L.O.V.E

a boys who already turn 18 years old....i didnt try to find a relationship with a girl...i only know how to treated a girl good but i dont know at all how kind of feeling faced when we find a girl we like...

i feel so lonely and find someone to love............

isn't the problem is at me here...i don't know......i really don't know...............haiz............

i only know that during my dairy class i have a lot of good friend which are girl but i don't have the feeling of love toward someone else....i really don't know...

recently, i treated good toward a girl which are my good friend but i don't know whether i have the feeling of love toward her or not???????

what is love? i really don't know it......

i just know need to study hard every time....my brain now is full of nonsense thing that not related on my study....

1 october 2011

so fast i already live at KL about half year already......

at here,i recognize many friend and i learnt new thing that i cannot be learnt during my secondary school...

just few days past, i went to padini warehouse sale and they is crowned of people at there......finally we get into it and brought everything we need...

at KL also,i also recognize few friend which are especially treated good to me which are goi eewin fiona chee, steven kua, chen kc and etc....i feel thank you to them because they help me a lot, today first time i know what kind of serving that a western cuisine done before the main food was served...i had little interesting on how the whole process......

i dont know what is the kind of feeling when toward a girl you like....i domt know at all because i didnt get a relationship with a person since i already 18 years old.....

18 September 2011

today i was come back from my friend's house even though there was a little dismay but we need to went back KL and continue our study at all.......

after we come back form Pulau Pinang...it was raining cat and dogs near to Ipoh there...during at the bus,me,eewin and steven watching movie to let the time pass as soon as possible....
during at steven's house he cooked a lot of western cuisine for me and his family to eat...that was very delicious...

during afternoon, his father also cooked a lot of delicious cuisine for us to eat...

during the 2 days, i feel very happy and i hope that got another chance can go to his house because that was a good memories for us...

beside that,me and steven also have guy's talk and this let me more know about my friend and i could let him know about my background....this can increases our frindship...

16 September 2011

today it was a tough day...because i accompany my friend go back bukit mertajam and we don't buy the train or bus ticket at all because we believe that they still got train ticket go back there...but unfortunately,the train is stop due to the flood at sungai buloh,KL.after that,we go to the pudu raya for buying ticket go back but ticket for that day already fully sold out....

thus,we forced to buy the bus ticket for another day morning....

we are chase from pudu raya and we go to the McDonald and we stay from 12 am to 6 am at there...

that was a tough day but it is very stimulate...and i cant forget this day with my friend how we pass that day with a lot of fun and all....